I have found that over a month of being in quarantine things about myself was starting to change.
I realize that my attitude was a little bit more snarky and my fuse just a little bit more short. I’m not exercising as consistently as I had been, and my nutritional habits are very wavy. That’s a reality, but for me a scary one in a career in profession I’m so passionate about. I don’t want my health to fall by the wayside. Why?
Trying to juggle working from home with conference calls throughout the day, having to make sure my kids Are learning, the kids always on 10! (Mommy, mommy, mommy…), trying to be a good wife and just overall just trying to be a better me was all becoming a real struggle. I was raising my voice more, having a shorter fuse and I didn’t like it!! My patience was finally tested.
Last Sunday I was kindly reminded from scripture 2nd Corinthians 12:7-10 that Paul asked the Lord to take away his thorns (struggles/weaknesses)3 times, and the Lord did not.
Why? In our weakness we are actually made strong in Gods power He gives.
|2 Corinthians 12:7-10 New International Version (NIV)7 or because of these surpassingly great revelations. Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong|
His power is working on me Because as I go through moments where I feel like I want to scream, it’s as though the Lord takes a hold of me and reminds me of His pure goodness and I get a sense of calmness. I’m learning that the Lord is teaching me how to properly deal with the struggles I face without taking it out of control.
The other day As I lead my women’s small Restorative Wellness group, I was reminded as we all shared our struggles and victories, that I can redeem my overall wellness and my patience can calmly be restored. Blast worship music, get and take a walk, take the time to MANAGE MY TIME.
Although I know my patience will still be tested as we continue on in this Quarantine, I know that God’s grace is sufficient for me in this time And that He will continue to teach me how to deal with struggles that come.
Wanted to share a funny clip of…my patience getting tested.
I just think the Lord that he loves me so much to be patient with me as I work on my patience.